The anticipation of tomorrow is killing me ... I absolutely DO NOT want to go! I feel like I am being punished ... and I have no idea what I have done wrong ... I just don't deserve this! It really pisses me off!
Somehow, though, I MUST find the strength to fight ... to believe in my doctors ... to trust in the medicine ... to have the faith to overcome my many fears! Now, more than ever, I need your prayers ...
Lately, this quote has been lingering in my mind ... just as it did a little over a month ago when I was feeling completely overwhelmed ...
"Whether you think you can, or you think you can't - you're right."
-Henry Ford
I CAN and I WILL ... it all starts tomorrow ...
5 comments:
I know you can do this Jill. YOU know you can do this. Damned the cancer...full speed ahead. Let's get this going so that you can be done with it! I love you.
Mom
I know you can Jill!
You have prayers coming in from all over, your army of family and friends are here to help you in this fight!! It is time for the attack! You are ready Princess Warrior!!!! Love you!
Remember Jill..God is not a vengeful God. There is no way you are being punished for anything. What could that possibly be? When there are no reasonable answers...we always search for some kind of understanding. But, the fact is...there is no understanding this. You have been given a challenge. You will win.
In our Sun Stand Still studies, we went over the 12 Audacious Faith Confessions ... here's one for you: "I have no fear or anxiety; I trust in the Lord with all my heart."
Proverbs 3:5-6; Philippians 4:6-7; and 1 Peter 5:7
Jill, if you get a chance, you should get the book "Sun Stand Still" ... you have a Sun Stand Still prayer and I know you would thoroughly enjoy and get much peace and comfort out of this book!
I think of everything you are feeling as NORMAL AND HEALTHY! Of course you are afraid and angry and overwhelmed. One day everything is just the way you want it, the next day someone is telling you the lump is cancer. You should be pissed!!!!
I pray you bring forth the strengh and grace you already have inside you to conquer this, not only for yourself but for Scott and the children. Everyday that passes brings you closer to the healing, Princess.
Love,
Kelly
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